8/2/12 11:50pm

Well, my dads birthday is tomorrow and i just made him a card. Heres hoping he likes it. I had a full day of work and ofcourse i fell UP the stairs and fucked up my toe. ow. As i said before, i miss everyone. Im going to see my new school tomorrow. maybe see it, im handing in the lease of my house for proof of residence in the district. I really hope that theyll let me go inside the school or set up my schedule. That'd be fun. Im fucking tired. I need to pee but im thirsty at the same time. Im frustrated with everything because i cant get the guts up to tell my dad about my boyfriend. Im such a puss.
K. I need to relax. Bye

8/2/12 10:27am

           I have to go to work in a couple minutes. Im too tired. I dont want to. But i have to. I just want to sleep foreverrrrrr. Well that was boring. Ill write again after work. K. I need to relax. Bye

8/1/12 10:12pm

       I miss my friends. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my family. I miss my town. I miss my school. I miss my teachers. I miss everything. And I do not like living here. There is nothing to do except work. and even on the days im scheduled to not work, they make me work because i live abovee the fucking store. It sucks. Literally that is the only thing i do everyday. Work. I havent gone outside except to do SUP yogs with dads gf and tonight i went out and got chinese by myself and my heart was racing because i cant go anywhere without getting nervous for no reason at all. I am so ready to start school so i have something else to do besides work. And so i can communicate with people my own fucking age.
Oh my god. K. I need to relax. Bye.

8/1/12 11:25am

So, i dont know anyone my age in town and i probably wont until school starts. Starting a new school in 11th grade is going to be really hard. I hope i make at least one friend before school starts...lol...so im not a complete loner.. oh my god im scared..
K. I need to relax. Bye.

8/1/12 1:25am

        I just woke up crying from a dream/nightmare in which my boyfriends parents hated me and told him he couldnt see me anymore.. This is what happens when i try to sleep. Not doing that again.
K. I need to relax. Bye.

8/1/12 1:01am

         I decided to make this blog because i cant sleep at night and im sick of writing on paper. I didnt put my name because i think that some of the things i put on here might be personal...
         So I just moved. Im in my new house and im really scared to start school because i dont know anyone at all. Im really social when im around my friends and people i know, but when i have no one around me that i know, or that i can be myself arounf, im really shy and awkward. So it sucks.
         K, I need to relax, bye.